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I think alot.. abnormally so. My mind just constantly dwells upon things, and what would be my blog if I did not share these thoughts.
One thing I think about is the nearness of adulthood and it’s relation to romance and marriage. No more are the petty 3 month relationships and flings, we’re entering the real world here. I’m talking engagements and matrimony. Now, rejection and unrequited love is something I’m all too familiar with. It’s not something I necessarily despise but rather something I have grown to accept. I mean, it’s a part of life. No one is obligated to return the feelings that you may have for them, it just really sucks when they don’t. Now you can either get over them or hope that maybe one day in the future their view of you will change and you will gain an opportunity to be with them. Even if they get a boyfriend or girlfriend, relationships come to an end right? Not necessarily. Maybe they do now as teens but this is all going to change in a couple of years. I mean think about it, a person you might have had a crush on for years, and you’ve been working up the courage to let them know, all of a sudden they’re engaged. No more secret wishing that the current relationship is just a phase, that there’s no substance, that you’ll eventually get a chance. Now they are about to make a binding covenant before God with another person. Basically, you are losing that person forever, no more chances, till death do they part.
There’s a girl whom I consider the “perfect woman” due to a combination of her love for Christ, gentle spirit, wonderful talents, and quiet beauty. To my faithful readers, you have come to know her affectionately as “worship girl”. It wouldn’t be fair to say that I like her being that a total account of the time I’ve spent talking to her in my lifetime would add up to no more than 20 minutes but I would indeed like to get to know her and see if there would be a possibility of something greater between us. Due to a recent viewing of her Facebook page I couldn’t help but notice that she has been in a relationship with someone for the past year. They work together in ministry, I’m quite sure he’s bonded with the family, a friend has attested that he is a great guy, which leaves me no choice but to conclude that the relationship will lead to marriage. Of course, I’m happy for them, but I couldn’t help but think that in the future there will be a girl that I will be serious about, that I will talk to for more than 20 minutes, that will capture my affections… and she may choose to spend her life with another man, right in the midst of feelings for her. How would I react? How would I feel? Would I go to the wedding? Would I know the husband? Would I despise him? How long would it take me to get over it? Would I be able to retain my friendship with the woman without falling into the sin of coveting another man’s wife? How would I mange?
Yeah I think alot, but I figure that this would be just one of the thought that I share with you guys. As we get older, things change, and we have to face new challenges we didn’t before. Thinking about it won’t stop it but.. maybe we’ll just be a little bit more prepared if we do.. I don’t know. Oh me and my crazy mind =).
